worth it

This past weekend I turned 24.  It feels pretty darn old.
Since when did the phrase, "I'm married and have a baby on the way" become a part of my vocabulary?  
Oh right, somewhere around May 15th...
Growing older is so much fun.  I love my life now more than I ever have.  I feel so much gratitude for the things in my life at this time.  

my husband
my baby
my family
my mother
my job
my home
my health
my testimony
my time
my freedom
my savior

However, the past 6 months have not been so easy.
My parents divorced in April this year after 26 years of marriage.  It has been a trial that has come with an enormous amount of pain and sadness.
I can say however, that it has in turn strengthened my own marriage and urged me to look deeper in to my relationship.

For the past six months John and I have been living with my mother in her beautiful country home.
It has been such a blessing to us and to her.  At first it was extremely difficult to make the transition from just the two of us (me and Mr. Murphy) to adding a third person to our home life.  Granted, this third person was some one whom I cared deeply for and loved with all of my heart, it was still very hard.  I wasn't very happy about the situation and felt that I had lost so much by moving back home.  I felt like I was less of a wife and that I didn't have my own space.  Our freedom had changed.

I have since then come to realize that I didn't loose anything.
I gained more than I could have ever expected.

I am overwhelmed with thanks that we are where we are at this time.  I feel so happy that I get to have this sliver of time here with my mother.  I know that she won't always be around and I am so lucky that I get to spend my days with her.  She is going to be such an incredible grandmother to our baby EJ and we are forming even stronger bonds now that will last the rest of eternity. 

My heart is full.

(pictures from my birthday date this past weekend with my mother.  the day included shopping, steak and shake, meeting and talking to wonderful strangers, and heart speaking to heart)


Sara said...

Oh, Steak and Shake . . . How I miss your Frisco Patti Melts. :'(

Sara said...

Also, you and your mother are twins! But I think I've told you that before. And probably you get it all the time. :)

Unknown said...

You look so much like your mother! You two are both beauties :-)

Must be exciting for her as well, she's going to have a grandchild!

Haley said...

you are truly blessed :) I really enjoyed reading about your experience...and how you and your sweet family have turned a hard situation into a blessing. After moving away from my parents, I treasure the time with them...and the time I had when my Mom stayed with us a couple weeks after Brooks was born is a still SO dear to my heart. I'm glad you and your sweet Mom are enjoying your time together! And your lunch together looked so fun (and delish!). And HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

his little lady said...

this post is just precious! i adore instagram too, so these pictures are perfect. i'll be turning the big 2-4 soon and i'm really excited actually! embrace all these big, exciting changes!!
xo TJ

Autumn @ Autumn All Along said...

I'm glad you are getting blessings opposed to the opposite. Sometimes it is hard to discern what is what when things are hard or stressful.

Deveny said...

Counting blessings is the best cure-all I know of. And your mother? Gorgeous!

April Rowell said...

I understand your pain with your parents divorce. Mine also divorced when I was 24 (I'm 30 now) after 28 years of marriage and it's still a struggle. I think it's harder on adults than it is on kids. I'm praying for you. And you look adorable by the way :)

Lindsay said...

You look so much like your Mom! Beautiful! Glad I found your blog!

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