girl club

I was never a guy kind of girl. I never had a lot of guy friend much less boyfriends.  In fact I was surprised when I found a guy who even thought I was cool enough to marry. I loved having my group of ladies and I was fine.  So to be totally honest I'm so scared to have a baby boy.  Some days it still doesn't even feel real.  When we found out that we were having a girl the first time I felt comfortable and confident.  I grew up in a very tight knit group of women so I feel like I just get the girl stuff and I enjoy it!  I knew it would be easy to connect with Evaleigh and our bond was immediate.  

I am nervous that it won't be the same with A.M.M.  I wonder if he'll even think I'm cool. I hope I can learn to get excited about trucks and bugs and dirt.  I am intimidated by boys and even though I am growing this tiny one in my womb, he already scares me a little.  I suppose that a part of me feels like a lot of what I've learned about being a mother to Evaleigh can just be thrown out the window.  Having a boy seems like completely new territory.  I hope he will like me and that we will be friends like my little EJ and I are.  I'm sure after he joins our family I will wonder how I ever lived without Legos and matchbox cars on my floor.  I'm excited about seeing John with a son.  Just watching his excitement when we talk about him is enough to calm my nerves.  But until he comes I am going to enjoy my last bit of time with my Evie and everything girl.

Photos by my fantastic and talented friend Katie.//http://katiebellephotography.com/