I am choosing to end a rut today.
I am choosing gratitude.
I am choosing happiness.
I have been horribly sad the past few months. I haven't talked about this much but 2 months ago in April, my parents divorced. It was a huge surprise to me. After 26 years of marriage everything came to an end.
It has been an incredibly difficult thing for me to wrap my head around. I have spent many tear filled hours trying to understand why life turns out the way it does.
I suppose it all comes down to our choices.
We all have within ourselves the power to choose.
I can choose to eat jello for all 3 meals of the day. I can choose to go to the antique mall 3 times in one week. I can choose to do my laundry or to let it sit. I can choose to take 15 minutes to have a meaningful conversation with someone or I can let the moment pass me by. I can choose to be happy or I can choose to give way to my negative emotions.
Today I am going to choose to be happy.
I am going to try to understand why the Lord has put me where I am at this time. John and I have moved in with my mother to help her out during this hard time. We are living the home that I grew up in.
Even though we know this is where we are supposed to be right now, I haven't exactly been the easiest person to live with.
I have been sulking around and complaining that I don't have a place of my own. I have felt like less of a wife. I have been so much less productive. I haven't been cooking or taking pride in my own little area of the house. I have been sad to have left our friends and life in Atlanta. I have been being so negative.
I can't believe how ungrateful I have been.
I need to focus on the blessings of this situation.
Because we are living here I am able to see my wondeful mother everyday.
Because we are living here we are living rent free.
Because we are here we are able to save money and work to get out of the small debts that we have.
Because we are living here we are able to enjoy candle lit evenings on the porch.
Because we are here we have a snugly puppy to make us laugh and smile.
Because we are here I can look in to the lightening bug glitter filled woods in our back yard.
Because we are living here it has become possible for us to have our baby!!
I am going to try to make this place my home again.
I am going to reclaim my wifely duties and start doing the things that I enjoy again.
I am going to wake up each morning with a resolve to choose happiness.
(This picture really has nothing to do with this post except that John Murphy sure does make it easier to be happy. That and we went to the Glenn Murphy Ranch last weekend for Father's Day. I love my happy ranching husband.)