Last night I came home at 11:15, from almost 12 hours of babysitting, to an empty home. John was invited for a racquetball and a video game marathon at my sister and her husbands home in Athens. I will never understand men and their video games. So...I had the night to my self. What did I do?
1) Put on the most comfortable jammies I could find, included but not limited to a shirt I have had since Elementary school
2) Felt a little lonely with no one to snuggle with
3) Realized that was silly and told myself, "You can have fun by yourself, you like yourself."
4) Took a self portrait
5) Took off all of my make-up, let my hair down, and indulged in two guilty and unhealthy pleasures
6) Netflixed a classic. Old movies are the cure for any secluded night
*Jane Russell completely out-shown Marilyn. Sorry Mary.
I really enjoyed the movie except for the fact that the whole time I just kept thinking, "Jane Russell is Adam Cooper in drag! Jane Russell is Adam Cooper in drag!" It was tripping me out the entire film.
Adam Cooper would make a beautiful female.
7) Did another self-portrait through the viewfinder of my Nanny's vintage Ricoh Singlex II
8) Then I watched The Proposal and made snowflakes for a special Christmas decoration. Stayed tuned, it's going to be brilliant. I made them out of some music sheets from an old vintage piano music book and maps from an old Atlas that John had in his car.
"Hello Washington, how will your Christmas be?"
I realized a few things last night.
It's just as important to feed the relationship you have with yourself as it it is to feed the relationships you have with others.
Marriage has changed the way that I spend my time. When I come home or have free time, the only thing on my mind is wanting to be with my husband. But I realized last night that sometimes we have to step back and check back in with ourselves to make sure that we are doing what we need to feed our souls and stay connected to the "little I am" inside of us. We can do this alone and with people but I just needed the reminder that being alone is a sweet time of self discovery and self love. I had a great reunion with myself last night. I think we will get together more often.