As I lay in my bed with a few tears falling from my eyes trying to get a nap, Evaleigh is sleeping in the next room. I just finished singing her to sleep, like I do every day, and I had a twinge in my heart. I've been so caught up in wanting Avett to come lately. Naturally with my body so pregnant I am constantly aware that he could come at any moment. But as I sat in her nursery this morning I thought to myself, "Am I ready? Have I done everything with just her that I want to do?" I can feel the change coming and somehow a little guilt has entered my mama heart. I want to always remember the times when it was just the two of us. I hope she knows how much being her mother has changed my life, my soul, and the very strands of my being for the absolute better. What we have had and shared the past 20 and a half months has been the most lifting and fulfilling experience. I am really happy to meet Avett and to bring him in to our family and I've been told that it only gets sweeter and sweeter, but today I enjoyed watching her fall asleep to the sound of my voice while knowing that she was my only care in the world.
I'm my mom's oldest (a little sister and a little brother came after me) and I wonder if she thought the same thing...
...but today, 23 years later, we went to lunch today...just the two of us. My siblings are both on missions and dad and my husband were at work. We went to lunch together and it was fun for it to just be the two of us. :)
So, maybe your days of "just her" aren't really over...maybe they'll just be different. :)
Good luck this week!!!
oh girl, I remember this EXACTLY! I had your same realization and ended up still having a few days before my little man came, and I soaked in every single second with her. We seriously had such a great time together. And bonus--it helped take my mind off of always wondering when he was going to come (and let's be honest--the discomfort that is being 40wks pregnant) :)
Cannot wait for you, mama. Watching your little girl love on her little bro is going to spill you to mush. :) :)