i hate avacados but i love my baby

I love our life right now so much.

My little tummy is growing and more importantly the tiny human inside of it is growing too.

Today I feel as light as a cloud.  I feel refreshed from a good nights rest and my belly is warm and full with a morning bowl of Cream of Wheat topped with molasses.

I am anticipating tomorrow like it is Christmas.  Wait, no, better than that.  It's almost as good as our wedding day.  I think I might get up at 5 am and start getting ready for our ultrasound.  I can't wait to find out what our child is.  

It will change our lives no matter what.

If we have a son that will bring on a whole myriad of moments.

I'm not sure I would know what to do with a little boy because I have been surrounded by women my whole life.

An entire vision of moments pass through my mind though.

holding my little boy

kissing my little boy

watching him play with sticks and rocks and trucks

feeling so protective, as i know he would be a little daredevil

wiping his tears away when he falls down and scrapes his knees

watching John play with our son

teaching him how to ride a bike

saying "no" to playing video games a million times

watching him read his scriptures

having trouble waking him up early in the early morning and seeing his messy hair peek out from underneath his covers

watching him receive the priesthood

seeing him be a big brother to his younger siblings

sending him off on a mission

watching him return two years later and embracing him for 30 whole minutes

seeing him with his own children and wife as he follows the excellent example of his father

Then of course if we have a little girl my whole life would be full of different things too.  I can see her now with blonde bouncy curls just like I had.  Hopefully she has her father's luscious eyelashes and beautiful brown eyes.  My visions with this little girl are completely different.

watching this perfect little baby sleep

examining the beautiful lips that look just like her father's

seeing her discover new things

chasing her around as i know she will be full of more energy than i ever had

dressing her in beautiful little things

fixing her hair

kissing away her tears when she discovers that sometimes friends can be mean

teaching her about her individual worth

chatting about crushes and boys

helping her dress her body modestly

worrying all day about her driving around after getting a license

sharing soul touching conversations

laying in bed and playing with her hair as we talk about where to go to college

seeing her marry the man of her dreams in the temple

My mother took this video last night.  I am in my 17th week of pregnancy.  My voice is doing some weird things in the video, please know this isn't how I really talk.  I just thought I'd start the baby talk a bit early.

Dearest Baby,

Who are you?

We can't wait to meet you and let you in to our hearts.

Love, your Mama and Papa