I love our life right now so much.
My little tummy is growing and more importantly the tiny human inside of it is growing too.
Today I feel as light as a cloud. I feel refreshed from a good nights rest and my belly is warm and full with a morning bowl of Cream of Wheat topped with molasses.
I am anticipating tomorrow like it is Christmas. Wait, no, better than that. It's almost as good as our wedding day. I think I might get up at 5 am and start getting ready for our ultrasound. I can't wait to find out what our child is.
It will change our lives no matter what.
If we have a son that will bring on a whole myriad of moments.
I'm not sure I would know what to do with a little boy because I have been surrounded by women my whole life.
An entire vision of moments pass through my mind though.
holding my little boy
kissing my little boy
watching him play with sticks and rocks and trucks
feeling so protective, as i know he would be a little daredevil
wiping his tears away when he falls down and scrapes his knees
watching John play with our son
teaching him how to ride a bike
saying "no" to playing video games a million times
watching him read his scriptures
having trouble waking him up early in the early morning and seeing his messy hair peek out from underneath his covers
watching him receive the priesthood
seeing him be a big brother to his younger siblings
sending him off on a mission
watching him return two years later and embracing him for 30 whole minutes
seeing him with his own children and wife as he follows the excellent example of his father
Then of course if we have a little girl my whole life would be full of different things too. I can see her now with blonde bouncy curls just like I had. Hopefully she has her father's luscious eyelashes and beautiful brown eyes. My visions with this little girl are completely different.
watching this perfect little baby sleep
examining the beautiful lips that look just like her father's
seeing her discover new things
chasing her around as i know she will be full of more energy than i ever had
dressing her in beautiful little things
fixing her hair
kissing away her tears when she discovers that sometimes friends can be mean
teaching her about her individual worth
chatting about crushes and boys
helping her dress her body modestly
worrying all day about her driving around after getting a license
sharing soul touching conversations
laying in bed and playing with her hair as we talk about where to go to college
seeing her marry the man of her dreams in the temple
My mother took this video last night. I am in my 17th week of pregnancy. My voice is doing some weird things in the video, please know this isn't how I really talk. I just thought I'd start the baby talk a bit early.
Who are you?
We can't wait to meet you and let you in to our hearts.
Love, your Mama and Papa