3.22.2011

It's ok to forget, as long as you remember.


...but sometimes I forget.

Last night I came home from work feeling a little aggitated.  I was thinking about my schedule this week and I was realizing that I had very little time without there being something I had to do.  This weekend we are leaving to go to Miami for me to perform with the Ars Flores Symphony Orchestra.  I will be singing with a famous French soprano, Rima Tawil.  It's all quite exciting for us but I have been feeling pressure because I want it to go so well.

John and I ate our dinner and then we sat in the living room for a moment.

He was sitting in our blue chair and was trying to serenade me but all I could think about was, "Why didn't he sort the mail?  Why are there 17 pairs of shoes in our 'foyer'?  Why does the house suddenly look so overwhelmingly messy?"

Then I felt like a bad wife.

So often I get distracted with life that I forget to remember the to stop for the special moments
When John and I were dating I would drop anything I was doing to hear one strum of his guitar.  I would hang on every word that he sang and would swoon at his feet as I was intoxicated by his music. 
I want to be sure that since we are married now and comfortable that I don't take our special moments for granted just because they happen all the time. 
I never want to be desensitized to the unique and magical marriage that we have.
I want to take every moment inside of myself and commit it to my memory.

So, I took a deep breath and released all of the things that were pulling on my mind and I listened to him play his new creation for me. 
My love was deepened.

13 comments:

Kandice said...

i feel this way a lot too. i let the littlest things really get to me instead of focusing on the fact that sean's my whole world and the only thing i'll ever need. i don't like it when i take our moments, kisses, 'i love you''s for granted. i have to remind myself that i used to cherish each and every second and that's how i always want it to be

vintch said...

this is beautiful, sweet friend, and oh so true. it can be easy to dismiss marriage as just something else to take care of, but if you release everything to God and Him take care of you and your marriage, how much more freeing things are! i often come home and feel the questions and nagging stirring inside, then robert or pablo will do something precious and i'll snap out of my funk:) you guys are adorable.

Lissa Chandler said...

agreed on all counts. its just so easy to forget when you see so many other things to do, even when they don't matter that much.

good luck this weekend!

Rachael said...

Aww, that's a sweet post.
And it's a good reminder to really be in the moment with someone. It's understandable that it happens though. You have a lot going on! But it's great that you take time to notice. Some people could be too busy just to do that!
Good luck in Miami though! That's a great opportunity!

Maggy said...

I think you voiced what many of us feel & experience on a daily basis. 17 pairs of shoes and all, it's amazing how quickly an agitation can spark a mood. It's also amazing how well husbands handle us sometimes :) Thanks for the reminder and best wishes for your busy week.

Meredith said...

I'm sorry things are so stressful.
I bet you'll do great in Miami though!!!
And this is a really sweet post, your husband is blessed beyond measure to have you as a wife.

grace said...

thats so sweet, and such a great reminder.

that picture of you guys is so classic... it looks like it could be from the 70's!

i'm sure everything in miami will be perfect! enjoy!

Courtney B said...

Oh I loved this!! Don't we all need this reminder?! It's so easy to let life get in the way, to take over, to control our minds. You reminded me of what is truly important. The messes and stresses will always be there, but sweet moments like that might not. Thank you for posting!!
And good luck this weekend!

Candy said...

Your so cute !!! your right !! when marriage falls upon us there's so many things that have to get we forget the best things , I remember going to every soccer game that my husband invited me to . Now I have to be dragged sux !!!

Yours Truly said...

Ahh this is precious!
Sometimes we forget to take it all in :)
Too cute!

xoxo
Stephanie&such

Autumn said...

It's really so easy to do. I am glad my husband is always so much more patient than I am...it's hard to stay angry with him when I realize how forgiving (and purposefully forgetful) he is about my shortcomings.

Kassie said...

That's beautiful, and a very sweet reminder.

rachelinaustin said...

I totally have the same sentiments. With my husband and I being away from each other all day I sometimes forget to come in and just hug and kiss him before moving on to picking up the house and getting dinner ready. Thanks for the reminder to live in the moment. <3

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