Today we went for our hospital tour to see where Miss EJ will be born.
Is it weird that I was more nervous about finding out and knowing where to park the car than the actual birth?
I'm sure that will change...mostly because now we know where to park.
There were 3 other couples in our tour plus one really really excited grandmother. I loved walking around in the group holding Mr. Murphy's hand. All of us were first time moms and each of us had the pregnant waddle down like pros. We were all accompanied by our spouses, or to be politically appropriate as the hospital must say, "our birthing support partner." Hah.
We were both thoroughly impressed with the largeness of the Labor and Delivery rooms. Our tour guide was very informative.
However, it is kind of weird to hear words like, "stirrups, circumcision, and that special 'v' word" in mixed company.
Although nothing was more awkward than when the tour guide showed us the BIRTHING MIRROR. Talk about a moment you're not ready to experience with a crowd of strangers for the first time. All of us were giggling like middle school children. Suffice it to say that no hospital tour should conceivably be complete with out seeing the fully rotatable birthing mirror, that's what made it for me.
Well, in all seriousness the real magic happened when they took us up to the nursery. The tour guide was jabbering on about visiting hours or some other helpful information and it was like everything around me melted away. There, in the nursery, was a tiny newborn baby girl laying in her bassinet. She was a beautiful pink and freshly out in to the world scrunching her tiny toes. She opened her little eyes for a small moment only to squint and drift back to sleep.
Tears welled up in my eyes and all I could think of was our EJ in her first moments of life as a perfect beautiful small baby that I made with the one I love the most. I buried my head in Mr. Murphy's chest to hide my watery eyes and having a baby never seemed more real than in that moment.
I tuned back in somewhere around talking about birth certificates.
Today was wonderful.
I have never felt more ready to park the car and have my life changed forever.